Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A time and place for everything

I have thought for a long time that there is a place for everything and everyone in this world, I have also believed that things happen for a reason when they do happen. The unfortunate part of this is that we do not always have much say in what place we have in the world, or the timing of things that happen. Of course there is some control, but on several levels we don't get to choose our place in the world, or what purpose we serve. I do believe that everyone does serve a purpose in the world, and each time someone denies that the whole world suffers just a little bit. The reason I started down this line of thinking is due to the fact that I have been doing alot of thinking about what it is that is my purpose in the world, and how I could better support that purpose.

What I have come up with so far is that my purpose is to make the lives of those people who enter my a little bit better when they need it most. When there seems to be nothing positive in their lives, it is my ability and duty to step in and offer a ray of hope, it may be very small, it may be something unnoticeable. but just enough for for those people to know they are not alone, that at least one person cares about their thoughts and ideas, about the things that they care about most. Lately, I think that I may have not been as on my game as I have been in the past, but I am working very hard to get back to where I can be proud of this.

when I started writing this, i thought that I would get into the how's and the why's that I think this happens, and also the down sides for me as a person. now after thinking about it, I think that I should leave it at this, a positive message to remind myself that I do have a purpose, and my place in the world. That the people in my life may actually get much more out of it than I give it credit for.

Its so hard for me to write things like this. It reminds me that I am often a fool, trusting where I should not, giving where I should not. but firmly believeing that someday... someday it will all be much more clear. All the dots will be connected and I will be able to see the whole picture.

I can hope, and noone can take that away from me except me...
-D

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