HOLLY K-CAR Batman

ok so I have lots to write here, but at the moment I am to frustrated to even think about it... I took Loren's K-kar.. guess I will have to back post that one.. lol... to tinker on it.. well it had a catostrophic failure today and I ended up walking home. got me to thinking when was the last time I had to do that... more on that later

Chills...

Its not often that somthing happens that stops me in my tracks. enough to say. WOW, that was intense. I heard a song today, one I had heard before and never really heard... a friend sent me a link to a tiesto song, was a really good song after I listened, I was browsing through other videos and I ran across this song.

"DJ Tiesto - just be" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvKbGQRrWCM

I was lost and I'm still lost, but I feel so much better...

You travel the world but you can't run away from the person you are in your heart.
be who you want to be, make us believe in you, keep all your light in the dark. Your searching for truth, you must look in the mirror and make sence of what you can see... just be.... just be....

They say learning to love yourself is the first step that you take when you want to be real...
flying on planes to exotic locations won't teach you how you really feel. face up to the fact that you are who you are, nothing will change but belief.. just be... just be..

cause now I know its not so far to where I to where I go the light is there, its inside me... in need to... just be..... to just be...

I need to put this into my music rotation. WOW...

Time to update

Its been a while since I have written in these pages. I took a break for several reasons, the biggest being that I was in a transitional point in my life. had alot of stuff going on and needed to just take care of everything, and this took a back-seat to that.



Since then, thigns have calmed down considerably and I am starting to feel normal again. I left my traveling job, I have sence found work that is local, to both PHX and my house. This has been a huge help, as traveling so much with everything else that was going on was REALLY stressfull. I also have continued to make mistakes, and make things worse that they prolly needed to be with some of the stuff in my life. I think now that I have reach a point where its just going to be time that tells me what direction that I go next.



On the lighter side there is an addition to the family, somthing I have been thinking about for a long time, and now I think I can actually accomplish.

For the first day and a half he went by nameless pup. But I think that his offical name is going to be sprocket. As you can see he spends lots of time sleeping, I think that this is a very temporary thing. He is a Boston Terrior, and they are known for being crazy hyper. we will see how it goes, but I look forward to not having such an empty house. Because the new job is close to work, I can come home for lunch and play for an hour or so. and then go back and finish up.

I have a pretty good feeling that there will be several posts about him in the near future. Somthing to move me away from some of the other issues I have been having.

more later