you can't go back

I have thought about this statement alot in the past year, off and on most of my life actually. It amazes me how one decision can mean nothing or can change your life forever. I look back on my life and see how much I didn't know. makes me wonder how things would have been different if I had the information I should have at the time that I needed it.

if you couldn't tell this is one of those rembeling posts. have had alot of feeling lost recently. Those feelings of helplessness sneaking up on me. So far I have been able to keep them at bay.

today I updated my myspace profile, as much as I don't like the site, it has gotten better recently. I am hesitating adding a "the past" photo album. I want to, but am not sure if I am that stong. I let myself get rapped up in the past to often. I don't think that it is really a good thing to do it all the time, I also feel that I need to remember from time to time. Espically those times when I have forgotten where I came from, where the road took me.

I got a new Phone recently, its a nokia... reminds me of the one I had when I went to kentucky. So many years ago. That part in life is the one thing that makes me think, picking up and moving somewhere might be the best thing for me. Usually that thought passes. Espically when I look around and see what I have acomplished, and espically my friends.

I miss several key people that I have had the oppertunity of knowing. People who have made some kind of impact on my life. Its really sad how we can drift apart from people that we care about, people that mean so much to us at points in our lives.

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