change

Sometimes somthing that hits you all at once, sometimes so constant that you don't even know it has changed until you look back and see just how far you have come.

Today has been a long day, alot of emotions. I laughed, I cried.. I reminised. Away from all of that, I take away 2 things. Change and Perspective. Change is constant, no matter what it is, even if only seems to be time. Perspective on the other hand, can be constant but also can chane the feeling and meaning of almost anything.

Its easy for me to forget these two things. Seems like I need to be reminded over and over again. and each time I learn them, I take a little somthing extra away. I want so much to live the life that I think about in my head. I want to believe that I am a good person, I want to be so much more than I am.

It just seems like real change is just out of my grasp, I will keep trying though, and eventually will get to where I want to be. I think I will have an even more lofty goal by then though, guess we will see.