On the plane

I am on the plane, half way throuight the flight. I have turned on some music by an artist I recently found. He plays an eletic violin. I find it quite soothing. I also find my mind wandering when I listen.

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, the one thing that I wish is that the reason was a little more clear a little sooner.

I find myself reflecting back on somthing loren showed me, somthing a friend of his showed him. It was a explination that stated people come into ones life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.. This leaves me wondering about cam spacifically. Did he come into my life for a reason? A season? Or a lifetime?

This I think is a big part of what I have been struggeling with and what has been eating at me. Where this is going I guess, and is it the best direction for both of us?

I reached a certin point where I have just stopped and put everything into a we'll see or time will tell state. I know that it is/was not a good idea but I didn't know what else to do. Espically since I have been gone so much.

I think this last week leading up to last night has let me see more of the whole picture. How things might be in the long run.

This will require more thought..
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