Random thoughts

I was just sittig here haveing random thoughts. and I wanted to pose to myself a retoracle question. When you really care about someone, and you do everything in your power to help that person be happy. listening to what they want and doing somthing about it. How should you feel when its not returned? when you tell someone "I would really like this." and have it be ignored or "forgotten"... I feel like anything that I want doesn't matter. that a negative opinion about somthing will only lead to a fight. I don't know what I am even good for any more.. except maybe working on the cars, or greaching the things on the high shelf. it gets really depressing sometimes. So I thought I would write down my thoughts here.

Monsters b-day.

its been a while since I wrote in here.. for soem reason I think I was using this as my outlet when I was fustrated, or sad, or depressed. I seemed to write in here alot less often when I was in a good place in my life. Well this entry will change that. Right now I am laying on the couch in the Arizona room looking out into the back yard, at what should become a Georgous day... the wind is blowing, it supposed to be in the 70's... these are the days that people live for in AZ. Today is also the Monsters b-day. And I realized that we are really lucky to have so much. that there is really alot to be thankfull for.

I just read back entries of my journal and realize that I need to write some back dated entries then I will write more about today and going forward...