rought night
Last night was tough… I was in a pretty good mood all day… when I got home I went and bought a digital camcorder for Saturdays event, we will see how that goes... in the evening something happened that kinda reminded me how I still have several places in my life that are very fragile. After this happened I went to bed, (8pm) and slept till my alarm went off at 6am, fully clothed. Wanting more than anything to just hide from the world till I felt better. I had some messed up dreams which is not to surprising. Dreams about other parts of my life that are also very fragile, I woke up to my alarm all of them fresh in my mind. I think that we need to remember the parts of our lives that are easily damaged. And know that when they do get hurt; which they will; that it is part of the growing process, and something that needs to happen, this doesn’t make it any easier when it does happen, but it is something that I just try to remember when I get hurt, mostly for perspective and to help keep me from becoming jaded.
I woke up this morning and took a long hot shower, walked outside and all the cars were covered with dew (something that is REALLY RARE in PHX) and I thought... you know... I have the cam that takes digital video I should start the car and let it steam and take video of that (I know I am weird but it makes me happy) so I started the car and went in got the cam and took some video. It actually turned out pretty good. I have to remember to tell Joe that I took video and ask if he can pull it off for me... So after that I got in my car, turned the heat way up and drove to work listening to some music. I can say that I am happy now, and that I really enjoyed the drive to work, it was very relaxing. I think that when I do finally get my own place I will look in central PHX for a older home because I really enjoy that drive... and the central area is so easy to get around in. so that’s all I wanted to write in here, and the reason I wrote it is because this is not something I can talk to anyone about because it involves the people closeted to me right now who I would normally talk to. I think that I just need to be scarce this weekend (other than the party of course) and just let things go a little... guess I will see how I feel...
Today is employee application day, so they are setting up the parking lot for food and what not... should be fun... I think I am going to leave my phone off for the day and just try to concentrate on work from here on. I think that might help me a lot today...
We Will See
I woke up this morning and took a long hot shower, walked outside and all the cars were covered with dew (something that is REALLY RARE in PHX) and I thought... you know... I have the cam that takes digital video I should start the car and let it steam and take video of that (I know I am weird but it makes me happy) so I started the car and went in got the cam and took some video. It actually turned out pretty good. I have to remember to tell Joe that I took video and ask if he can pull it off for me... So after that I got in my car, turned the heat way up and drove to work listening to some music. I can say that I am happy now, and that I really enjoyed the drive to work, it was very relaxing. I think that when I do finally get my own place I will look in central PHX for a older home because I really enjoy that drive... and the central area is so easy to get around in. so that’s all I wanted to write in here, and the reason I wrote it is because this is not something I can talk to anyone about because it involves the people closeted to me right now who I would normally talk to. I think that I just need to be scarce this weekend (other than the party of course) and just let things go a little... guess I will see how I feel...
Today is employee application day, so they are setting up the parking lot for food and what not... should be fun... I think I am going to leave my phone off for the day and just try to concentrate on work from here on. I think that might help me a lot today...
We Will See

