Another WOW day... a reminder of what love truly is...

Today was another one of those WOW days a day that reminded me what love truly is... for me at least. Love is the little things, the feeling of being complete when you are around someone. A smile just because you are close to someone, just because you know you can make them smile as easy as they can make you smile. I am so happy just to know that I have been able to have this feeling.

I think what I find odd is that today was just little things, things that everyone takes for granted after a while... maybe that’s the key... It has been pointed out to me several times in the past couple of days that sometimes it is the little things that make the difference... the problem comes when we start to take those little things for granted.

Today started out oddly, with having to go to the new datacenter instead of the one I normally go to. The new one was about 6 blocks from my house which was nice… had not remembered I needed to go there... LOL... luckily I left for work early and it all worked out in the end. I ended up working with a couple managers and another co-worker from another group to start tearing down some racks n stuff in this “new” datacenter and I learned a lot about future plans for the company which was very nice... we finished up early, so I called the first person that always comes to mind when I get off work early, the monsta… to see if he wanted to do anything. He said that he would like to do something later in the day, so I took the opportunity to do some shopping and get some things that I have really needed, like the soap I like the detergent I like stuff like that...

So I started laundry and took a 45 minute shower which is pretty unheard of for me. It was as close to a religious experience as I think I have had in the shower, the combination of smells, and warm water, and my mental state, all came together to make for a very enjoyable experience… Ok that sounds really weird but its true… I got out of the shower, got dressed and put on smelly stuff... hehe did my hair, looked in the mirror and thought... not to bad... I called the monsta and as if I planned it that way he informed that he was headed north, I asked if he was coming to pick me up, he wouldn’t admit it but I knew he was… Almost like we had a “link” LOL (inside joke) he called when he was right down the street, I put on a shirt, finished getting ready and was stepping out the door as he pulled in the driveway. Good timing again? We went to fashion square. Walked around for a while, got a pretty not so good smoothie, and when he asked what I wanted to do next I told him that I wanted a Ring. First words out of his mouth were well lets go to unique on central. Sounded good to me so we were off… when we got there, they had several pretty cool rings, one that I liked enough to buy, the monsta liked one also so I bought that one for him (I like being able to do stuff like that) this seemed a little symbolic to me, but I just kind of let it go. When we left, I said we should go get coffee before we went to Roscoe’s (we had decided to go grab a little drinky poo) and of course he headed straight for the place I was thinking of that was totally the opposite direction, (lucky guess…. *wink*) we had a little coffee incident as my cup had a split in it and dribbled all over me. The cup was replaced along with the contents, and then we were able to finish our walk that we had started.

We finished our coffee flavored beverages, and headed off to Roscoe’s. I got a purple Barney which I had not had in a very long time and it was really good. I nursed the first one and ended up having 2 more (hey I don’t indulge very often hehe) the monsta dropped me off at my house at about 9:30 and he headed home so that he could be up early... So nothing really spectacular that happened. Just a very good time, and I remembered what it was like to feel that love again. Cause even thought we are not together any more, we are really close friends, and when we fall into sync (which happens more often than not) it just seems Right. As always I do not know that the future holds for me but I do know that the monsta will be in my life and I will be in his for the foreseeable future…. And that makes me smile, and look forward to the next time.

I go to sleep now Very happy…

thoughts in the dark

Sitting here in the Dark, listning to music, doing a lot of thinking again... What’s new right? This time a lot about the past. Things I have experienced, people I have met. Wondering how things could have been different with different decisions... its not that I want to change anything, but I wonder how life would have been different...

I have taken a break from chatting over the past week or two... and in the last couple days I have tried logging in again... and I don't know why i do... I just get more frustrated when I do... people all seem to be the same for the most part... all looking for a quick fix of sex... and that’s about it... I would like to meet more normal people... I meet one or two here and there, and it just get frustrating. I think I could write a whole book on the subject of gay men and on-line chatting...

It’s hard to imagine meeting someone new and starting a life with them... I feel so much like I have tried that and after the energy that I put into it, I feel like I no longer have anything to offer someone. Why would someone want to be with me? I kind of feel like I am an empty shell... someone who used to be so full of love and life... now I feel like no matter what I do I just can't muster enough enthusiasm to date someone... maybe its normal.. Maybe not... I feel this emptiness in the pit of my soul where there used to be something... The funny thing is I met someone that totally changed my thoughts about this... but I have to wonder if it was only because he was totally unavailable...

I have decided to make some changes in my life, see if I can get some new perspective and I think that if I put them down on paper maybe it will be easier to stick to them... I want to try and lose some weight by Christmas, the amount has not been totally determined, because I want to still be healthy, and the last time I lost weight I kind of went over board when a friend’s mom said... "So is Dave sick?" that was kind of my wake up call. I have also decided to "fix" some of the issues that someone told they had with me at some point. I am going to try to have more "good habits" and less procrastinating, washing cloths once a week, keeping my room picked up, keeping my cars clean as possible... stuff like that... see what happens if I try... I have tried both of these in the recent past, but it was for someone else... this time I want to do these things for ME, I think that they will help me be a more happy, healthy, well rounded person..

Well those are the thoughts for tonight I think... maybe I will write more later... we will see...

its been a couple days.

Well its been a couple days since I wrote in here.. I guess its that time again... couple things happened.. wrecked the sentra.... AGAIN... car pushed through a turn and into a curb, bad tires, dirt on the road, and to much speed... I am ok, a little stiff today, but for the most part I am good. I got a chance to put my new rims on my wagon.. looks pretty good I think... It drives SOOOO much better... lets see what else... keepin busy at work, worked bout 11 hours today... made a promiss to myself to lose a little weight.. so far so good...

I think thats all of the "whats happened" stuff. I wanna add some thoughts.. I think I am gonna sit and listen to some music first, collect my thoughts..

a day.... that I will not soon forget...

I don't know how today ended up the way that it did, but it ended up being a day that I will remember for some time to come... It started off fairly normal, I left early so that I could stop for Ice tea on the way to work. I got to work a little late after realizing I forgot my licence so I had to come back to the house and get it.

I spent the day rapped up in work, the guys I worked with went and got lunch and brought me some which was nice. I stayed busy most of the day, and near the end of the day I started talking to some friends about a corporate mixer put on by the gay and lesbian chamber of comers, here in PHX. I had planned to go for about a week or so. It sounded like somthing interesting to go to.....

Just about then, my phone rang, it was my friend ryan asking if I could still pick him up from the airport... I had totally forgotten.. I told him that of course I could... I had also told another friend Justin that I would pick him up and take him to the mixer thing, so I figured I would just get ryan on the way, drop off justin at the mixer and take ryan home.

so NEWAYZ... picked up justin, picked up Ryan, and his luggage, and aksed him if he wanted to go to this little mixer thing and he said yes. we went to this little thing, and I ahd a really good time, got to know someone people, it was a really good thing. after that, I went and dropped ryan off, we talked alot about live and death, and the little life's lessons that we all learn... I was beggning to feel emotional, and very mellow by the time we got to his place, we sat in the car and just talked for a while. it was a really nice time. he made some off the cuff remarks as he was leaving, that gave me a pretty good idea of how he was thinking... to be honest, that made me smile... its been a long time since I have trully felt wanted... I smiled and said that we should do somthing later that night. he agreed, and we parted company.

I was driving home and realized that I had not gotten a chance to to go visit with someone that I felt I really needed to visit. Someone that helps bring clarity to some of my thinking, and helps give me direction, someone who I always feel like listens to me.... And yes... someone who can always make me cry... This time was no exception, but I left feeling like I should persue a different direction...

I got home, and got kinda setteled in. I called Ryan, and asked if he still wanted to come over. he said he did, so I showered and put my landry in and about that time, ryan caled he was just down the street. I gave him directions to the house and he came in. we sat on the couch and watched romeo and juliet, (the one with lenardo de caprio) and it was very.... Interesting..... it was a really nice time.. and the first time I have had someone come to where I lived for anything even remotly like that other than the monsta in like... 5 years...
WOW how pethetic is that.. LOL

So long story short, a really good night, and somthing I can look back on and smile.. nothing earth moving.. but a very good night none the less..

big smiles.

Emotion is a funny thing....

its funny how things remind you of the past, and the effect that they can have on your emotional state of mind.. sitting in an empty house with no lights on, I am listening to music. a list that is set to random... the beat the words, the meaning can reach into my very soul to a place where I hide things I don't want to think about or deal with.. if just to say, "you can't hide from yourself" somthing that I need to be reminded of from time to time.

no matter how many times I get emotional I still wonder at the causes. I need to take a drive tomarrow and visit someone... that always makes me cry but also gives me clarity... and perspective... I think that it is nessasarry for even the most tough person to cry once in a while, there are things that you just cannot express in life.. and sometimes the only way to deal with them is to totally break down and let go even if just for a moment..

Life is so short, I look back at the last 5 years and wonder where it all went. I look at my life... I look forward and wonder what there is in store for me. I wonder why no matter how hard I try there are just some things that I can't bare to deal with...

hummm a song just came on.... wonder if it is just a coinedence.. "I'm so tired of being here, supressed by all my childish fears.. and if you ahve to leave.. I wish you would just leave.. cause your presence still lingers here.. and it won't leave me alone.. these wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just to real.. theres just to much that time cannot erase. When you cryed, i'd Iwipe away all of your tears.. when you scream I'd fight away all of your fears, I've heald your hand through all of these years... but you still have.... all of me...." Well that pretty much summs it up for me..

SO many things that I cannot put into words, so many memories that are so happy... I could ask why but I know that there is no one answer, I know that everything happens for a reason.. maybe this was to show me that life is a chain of events all strung together just memories holding them together.. both good and bad. Life is truly a Journey, and the experences we gain along the way I believe are the meaning.

To have a shoulder to cry on tonight.. to have a warm body next to me, to have someone to just tell me that everything will be ok. I close my eyes think about the past and I smile, Then I open my eyes, and wish for someone that I could share my thoughts and dreams with again.... God I miss that.....

WOW.. So much emotion... emotion pulling several different directions at the same time.. I should probally wrap this up before I get wound to tight.

I look to the past as a guide to the future, knowing that all I am armed with in my life is my experences, and knoledge that I have gained from mistakes and lessons I have learned in the past. So I look forward, with smile, knowing that anything can happen tomarrow and it could be the day that changes my life forever. -ME

The Rental Coffin Part Duex

So The monsta called me when he got his rental truck.... I told him he had to stop by and show it to me. he called and told me to meet him outside. it was a 1/2 ton 4X4 extended cab, silverado chevy pickup.... WITH A 4.8 v-8.. Ug what a POS.. so since he had rented a car from the same place for Jim's mom when she came down.. and he called that the rental coffin, we are calling this one the rental coffin part duex.. the sequal.. LOL... maybe later we will take it out...... "4-wheeling" LOL.... better bring the charokee for when we need to pull it out when it gets stuck.. LOL....

anyway.. just thought I would put that down in words. I am sure I will ahve more later.

monsta update

I guess monsta got to the dealer and got all his stuff out and dustin said that he ould mostlikely noit see it again and all he knows is that the Nissan engineers are calling it a "field test" The monsta seemed a little pissed (as I would be) that he may not see it again when he has a tool box and a exaust system on it. Dustin said that they would mostlikely just cut him a check for it. The link must be up because I told him that he should tell them that he wants the loaded one instead, with navagation n stuff. and he said that he had already mentioned that to the service guy who told him that they have the money to basically do whatever he wants.

Thought I should update that while it was fresh in my mind.. I guess they are gonna give him somthing nice as a rental.. I told him to come by here when hegets it.

just a mid-day update

went to lunch with the group an hour after I got here, went to fudruckers, it was nice to drive my car and not be all hot and sweaty epically since I am sun burned, apparently my boss called and was upset that we all left at once which I can totally understand.. long story behind that but its not important.

The monsta called and aperently Dustin his service advisor called him and said that he needed to bring his truck in and that Nissan was going to take it and prolly not give it back no word as to what might be the reason behind that, but they are going to put him in a rental car I guess. he said he would call later.

Things are pretty quiet at work thought I would update this.
more later I am sure

WOW. what a good way to end a long weekend.

Well I worke up at like 9ish, unloaded the car into my room (with the exception of the rims I brought back which I put in the wagon. I layed down for a while, talked to joe at about 11 asked if he wanted to go get some food, he said he would like to at around noon, so I thought that I would go wash my car and take out the trash I had collected from the move.

I got back to the house at around 11:45 we decided to go to the good egg at park central mall. food was awsome, and I am really enjoying being able to spend time with joe. I would like to think that he is enjoying having someone to talk to as well. I hope that I am not invading to much on his brivacy though. I have attepmpted to let him know that I will talk aout anything and have tried to make things as good as I can while I am there... anyway... after breakfast the monsta called can said him and jim were going to long john silvers for food, and he would call me when they were done. Joen and I went to target so I could buy a couple things, had to get some coat hangers, and a power strip and some socks. we headed home after that, and I got all cleaned up and got my room cleaned up.

the monsta called and said he was on the way, I had to call america west and dispute the double charges that hit my account. as I was getting off the phone he pulled up in the driveway and we went desk shopping for me... I found the one that I think that I want at Staples for 129$. we decided that we wanted to go to scottsdale fashion square and that he wanted to drive my car so we went and got it and headed up there. once there we wandered around a little, decided we wanted jamba juice so went over to starbucks so that we could use their hot spot, found a jamba down the street.

on the way back to my house I realized that I had forgotten to have the monsta bring my laptop with him so I decided to follow him back to chandler and pick it up. I went in the pool while I was down there, and played with croozer, and it was a REALLY nice end to a LONG weekend.

looking forward to tomarrow.

OMG what LONG day

A long day but not a lot of words needed. Got up took a shower went into town found coffee and a map, I was going to try and go a new way home. I felt miserable, the sunburn is really kicking in now... SO glad I have A/C went up to the mountain looked around the car show, lots of nice cars. Was there till about noon I suppose. Decided to leave, and drove south and made it back to AZ at 3:30 am on Sunday but I thought that I would update this entry for Saturday evening, just because it looks better that way.

ok what day is it?

Well it’s Friday... I think… no wait… got to Portland at 10PM Tim and Chris were there to pick me up just as planned... wearing floresent colored shirts.. So they stood out a little… LOL... They took me up to Dougs, I went into the house and colleen thought I was Doug and said “hi honey” I thought that was funny. I went in and talked to here and gave her the chili pepper pen that I had gotten for her. She said that Doug was over ant Steve’s new place, I called and got directions over there.

Once I finally got to Steve’s place, I found Doug washing the car, and we all decided to head over to Dougs and put on Dougs spoiler on his wagon. Once that was done and I had loaded the Spec with all my crap (didn’t get the bike though cause the carrier wouldn’t fit) Doug went and got showered, and Steve went home to shower, we went over to meet Steve and we all went to Sherri’s for some breakfast. From there we went back to Steve's he packed and Doug and I went back to his place he said by to Colleen and we were off and running. We left Portland at about 3am and headed south... pretty un-eventful trip and we got to Shasta at 9am.

The lady at the hotel said we couldn’t check in till 3pm, but that we could leave our stuff in the room. Doug and Steve unpacked and we headed up the hill to where the events were happening.

There were actually quite a few cars there already. And they were setting up for the Jim Canna, (it was base ball this year) by about 11am or so Doug had his little tint set up down by the course and we were relaxing under the tent watching people get ready to run the Jim canna. I watched for a while they figured out scoreing and such, the rules got simplified several times over the course of the day. Once it was all set up the cars started to line up...

It was kind of set up like a baseball diamond and you had to round the bases (kind of a figure 8 kind of thing, and every other position had a ball on a piece of hose that you had to hit with a bat. Just before they started they asked for volunteers to “corner marshal” meaning you put up a flag if someone missed a ball or hit a cone. Well I stood out there for about 2 hours and forgot to put on sun block. Well needless to say I got rather burned... A LOT…

Well once we came back down off the mountain I decided that I was gonna go find somthing to help sooth my sunburn. Needless to say, after an hour I was more than a little irritated so I did what I normally do when I don't know what to do.. I called the monsta.. and in usuall form, he came through with telling me that he understood, when I told him I just wanted to leave right then, to come home... he asked how far weed was from where I was, and when I told him that it was about 10 miles, he sudgested that I go and eat there since he knew how much I liked the resturant that was there. this started to calme me down almost imeadetly.. just knowing that he knows me so well is still kinda baffeling to me... I hung up the phone and he told me to eat soimthing yummy for him... to make a long story short( to late) it is exacly what I needed and I had a chocolate malt for him... hehe...

I feel alot better going to bed now, I am glad that I called him..

Tomorrow should be interesting

At the Airport Long weekend ahead

At the airport.

Walking on the moving Sidewalk headed to Portland to get the Spec I am amazed how packed the Airport is. Taking the time to update my Journal the Current plan is to go to Portland and Tim will pick me up and take me to Dougs and Leave there at 4am for Shasta.

I have Not decided when I will leave from there to come Back to PHX with this many People here I am Remembering how much enjoy people watching there are a bunch of very interesting People here. There are also lots and lots of people. As a side note I had to buy a funky little Pen to use as a Stylist so far it is working really well this character recognition leaves a little to be desired

Some young Pilots I Should C all Sarah. Looks like the plane is going to be Packed Surprise Surprise there were No Seats left when I checked in. I think that I have rambled enough for now, think I Will play my game for a while.

Monsoon's in the evening

So tonight I had told the monster that I would come over and help him with the fan conversion on the buick. As I drove from the datacenter south to his place in chandler, I could see the monsoon roling in from the south and east. it was still well over 100 and very humid.. I could not believe how much I was sweting, still driving the chia with no A/C.

I got to the house and loren said he needed to run for some parts and asked if I would like to do that. I dove around bout a hour or so I suppose before I got everything and got back to the house. We spent at least 2 hours working on the car, and I was actually quite shocked that every thing worked the first time, it took forever but it all seemed to work.. as we were finishing the car the wind picked up and you could smell the moisture in the air. The whole time there was lightning all around us but not alot of thunder.

After the car was finished we cleaned up everything and went into the house. I was ready for a dip in the pool and the monsta said he would go get us some towels. When I got in the pool it was absoutly devine. it was warm, and refreshing. It could not have been more perfect.

Shortly after the monster joined me wearing those blue shorts that I ALWAYS see him in I imagine he will wear them out before to long.. LOL. he got in the pool with me and we marveled at the storm that was moving in. more wind than aything else which seemed about normal for the beggning of a monsoon, just before I had gotten in the pool JO JO had called me and told me that central PHX was getting HAMMERED with rain and Cheapers (his pet duck) was running around in the rain. We were in the pool prolly about 20-30 minutes when we decided to get into the hot tub.

We sat in the hot tub for a little while, and talked about nothing inparticular, just kinda shotin the breese. He mentioned that he really missed me, and I had to admit that I missed him too. I reflect back on that comment, and I think that is a big thing for him to admit to me. The wind picked up and the lightning seemed to be getting a little closer, but not a whole log of thunder yet. I sudgested that we get out of the hot tub and go inside, as we were walking in the door there was a flash of lightning that looked like it was across the streed followed by a clap of thunder less than a second later, this scared the crap out of both of us.

we came in just as it started to rain.. and BOY did it rain, within 5 minutes there was a river running out of the down spouts and the cooldecking had at least 3" of standing water on it. Timing is everything I guess. we sat and watched the rain and the thunder and lightning as it passed over about a 45 minute show I would guess. Monster heald Croozer so that he would stop shaking and panting, he was very scared. we went out later after the storm (12:30) to wendy's to get some food, and I crashed on the couch cause I really was to tired to drive back to central PHX and didn't want to deal with the scary people on the road.

so thats about it. over all I could not have asked for a better night. makes me miss the past ALOT. but I know that I am happy now and ready to let whatever happens, happen.

on time to work... no wait maybe not

Started my new shift today, 10am to 7pm, so I thought I would be on-time today instead of way early as seems to be the norm with me when I have a late shift. I got up at 9 and got showered, and dressed, left at like 9:30ish and kinda cruised to work. got here at 9:55 not to bad normally a 15 minute drive but I took my time. I got to the garud post and realized that I had forgotten my ID. So I had to go home and get it actually got into the building at 10:30 so that wasn't to bad.

my emotional state kinda carried over to today. had some pretty vivid dreams last night, the kind I used to have, about how things "COULD" be. I like having dreams like that because they seem to leave a lasting impression on me. so far today has not been to bad, got the server I have been working on up and going. have a couple more to test. shouldn't be to bad.

I am able to listen to my music at work today which is a really good thing. I am off by myself in one of the work room testing servers.

Over all I am pretty content right now. I think that I am going to start looking for houses next week, might ask the monster to come along as he seems to have an eye for test kinds of things.. I am seriously considering having a house built new. I think that the appriation on it would be much better, perhaps get somthing near where the new freeway will be going in.. guess we will see.

Gonna go get my sentra this weekend, flying too portland on thursday night and leaving friday about 3am so that I can stop shasta and see everyone. I am really looking forward to this, but it looks like I might not get to go to Canada, which will be pretty upsetting, we will see how things go.. maybe I can fly up and ride up with doug and colleen, since I will only have a weekend or so.

well more later time to do some more work.

rest of the day, and thoughts

a song came on as I was laying here that really kicked off this entrie.. its
called everything you want by vertical horizon.. no matter how many times I
hear this song it makes me think..

first monsoon tonight afterwork.... I drove towards Tempe Thought I would
go to mill. of course I thought of the monster, and wondered what he was
doing... we had a pretty good talk today.. he was supposed to pick up
a friends family from the air port cause they missed their flight after
spreading his brothers ashes.. So sad to be taken so young... I have heard
it so many times and it is so true.. cancer has no prejeduice. they were
going to fly back east I think to Iowa and missed there flight, so the
monster volenteered to pick them up cause his friend couldn't couldn't.

anyway, I was driving towards mill, hoping that he might call. I was also
hoping that the monsoon would hit mill while I was there. It had been a long
time since I had walked in the rain.. I stopped on mill and fixed my front
window so that it would roll up. my friend broke it the other
night, (fell off the track), once it was fixed I decided to go and drive
towards the storm and see f I could find some rain.

As I drove south I thought about things, life, where I was, how far I had
come, who I was what I wanted from life. I thought about how much I miss the
monster deep down. All the things I miss sharing with him, I am ok with things now, but I am not sure that I will ever stop missing him.

I continued to drive until I got to where it started to rain. a young
gentalman in a honda with the big ole exaust decided to drive right next to
me making all kinds of noise (ya I know like I can talk) so I decided to
accelarate a little and get where it wasn't droning in my ear, well I think
he took it as a challange and also accelrated... I wonder how it feels to
have a 30 year old datsun that is at least 3 colors drive away from you like
you are going in reverse.. well I can tell you that he knows what it feels
like now..

I made it to alma school and chandler (near where I was living before) so
I thought that I would call Jim my old roomie and see what he was up to.
when he answered I asked if he would like to enjoy the monsoon with me. he
said that sounded ok.. (normal jim fasion) so I got to his place and we hung
out at the pool (I put my feet in which felt really good) I asked him how
work was, and he started to unload what I am sure he had been holding in for
a long time about things going on at work.. it was actually pretty
intresting to me. about an hour passed, the wind kicked up it rained a
little and we just sat and talked by the pool side. Croozer looked at us
like we were nuts sitting in the rain. people that don't live here don't
understand how enjoable monssons can be. all except for the humidity
afterwards.

I called the monster as I was leaving, he said he was up at his parents
house and was headed south and would call me after a while I offered coffee
he said he would call me later...

as I mentioned in the beggning of this post I was listening to music when I
decided to write this. after I left jims I made my way up towards mill
again, stopping to get gas. I drove down mill a couple times before deciding
to stop. I just got a iced tea and got back in the car drove both ends of
mill again and headed home.. I stopped and tinkered on the wagon a little
think I found another one of my issues with the car.. seems a little better
now..

I got home opened the door, and heard joe call from the kitchen.. "Welcome
home.." as I walked into the kitchen he said, "how was your day dear, would
you like me to make you some supper?" Obviously he laughed after this, and
so did I, he joked about it after that. But I believe that people say things
for a reason, even if it is in jest, I think there is a little meaning
behind it.. just one oy my opinions..

The monster called about 11 and said he was out watching the lightning,
totally understandable, I wish he would have called I would have really
enjoyed that I think... not to big of a deal though, I might have needed the alone time now that I think about it.

As I finish this I am listning to a song called force of gravity.. and the line that just played was "do you cry your eyes to sleep?"

I wonder what the future holds for me, I am pretty mellow at the moment, but in the last hour or so had some pretty strong feelings that I can't really explaine, just kinda hit me like a huge wave, brought tears to my eyes. in some strange way it felt good.. to cry.. I pulled off the freeway and collected myself and kinda felt better about things. it was kinda like my body was telling me that I needed to take some time to be vunerable and let the things that bother me out... and it just finally took charge...

*sigh* maybe I need to go for a drive??
wish I had music in the car.. soon...

at work early?

I was going to check my e-mail this morning sitting here at work, and I one of my links is to my friends live journal, I hadn't read it for a while so I thought that I should, this brought me to the realization that I had not up-dated my journal in a while.

Well here goes, I got to work at 8 this morning because I remembered no one being here when I got here at 7:45 before, and well no only was no one here but all the lights were off.. Must be cause it’s Monday, or those rolling blackouts they have been talking about.

Not to much exciting has happened in the last week or so, been working and really enjoying it. Doing a lot of automation of tasks at work which has been fun. I also moved, I am now living in central phoenix instead of chandler. I moved in with a friend of mine and my commute time stayed the same to the datacenter and dropped to about a 1/2 hour to the office in Scottsdale, and no freeways. I got a photo radar ticket on the way to work.. I have no spedo in my car so no clue how fast I was going. I am hoping since I have Oregon plates still they will not find me.. Guess we will see.

Trip to Oregon this next weekend hopefully to get the red car, and bring it down to AZ, and finally have a/c again. Well now that people are finally arriving here in PHX I suppose that I should actually get to work.. I think I will have more to write later.

Job, new toys, beggning of a holiday weekend

Well today was a lot of fun. I ended up going to the Scottsdale office and got there REALLY early, and got lost.... In my defense I had only been in the office one day and was lead around the whole day. so I ended up having to call my manager and ask where we sat, I felt so stupid.

Well once I got there and had my VPN access, Morgan, my boss told me that he needed me to take something with me when I went down to the datacenter. It was this little box that was used for copying one hard drive to another. it is actually a pretty cool little device. So once I had all my crap I headed off to the datacenter. I called Loren and asked if he wanted to meet me for lunch but they were still out at the jeep dealer trying to get jims truck fixed. so I just went back to the datacenter and skipped lunch.

Once I was I built my first Linux box which was fun, not to tough and got a taste for the current process for setting up servers in rack's so that was a good thing as well. I was given a little dell PDA for the server check list which I found out later used to be my bosses and was handed down to the guy who was transitioning out of the position so he gave it to me cause he never used it anyway.

On the way home I set the PDA (with on-board wireless) to detect mode and found like 40 open wireless connections on my way home. I thought that was pretty interesting.

I talked to someone nice last night, and said that I would give them a call tomorrow another J name we will se how things go.

another pretty un eventful day. more tomorrow.

Day 2 on the ground running

Well here it is the end of my second day, and I hit the ground running. I arrived at the Datacenter where I will be spending most of my time a little early needed to be there by 7:30 for a server upgrade that was happening and that i thought would be a really good Idea for me to see. I arrived there at 6:40am so that I could also get my badge and key from the security gard. I was pretty close on estimating time as the gard took about 40 minutes to complete everything (but that is another story entirely)

Fairly un-event full day over all had a team meeting, defined what the new team was gonna be doing and who had what role in those functions. found out my VPN access was approves so that I will have to go into the office tomorrow to pick that up which means a drive to scottsdale (40 miles from home) but thats ok.

Took Jim's Grand Cherokee to coffee tonight, he said that is was behaving oddly so I said I would check it out for him. when I tried to start it it cranked normally then almost stopped cranked really slow then started. So him and loren are gonna take it to the dealer tomorrow. um.. think thats about it.. fairly un-event full Like I said.

More tomorrow