How far to go?

How far can you go? How much can you try to help someone before you start hurting? This single thought has been running through my head for a long time now. Should I pull away? Should I stay close? Should I back off and let that person reach for the help? Would they reach for help? Or would they turn away? Hurt by someone they care about turning away from them?

I have reached a point where I care too much, I know that now, and it is affecting both of our lives. But what does that mean? I think that I have reached a point where my caring and love has become a sore spot, a reminder... of everything, who I am, who he is, who I was, who he was, where we have been, everything. I used to say: "I was there before you were who you are now, and I am still here."........... I think that this is the problem. There are no defenses against someone that knows you completely, down to how you think and sometimes even what you are thinking. so the natural response is to do what you need to, to feel like you are protected from getting hurt by the one person who knows how to do just that better than anyone else. I personally prefer to think about it in a different way. I choose to think about it like this. Who else to spend all your time with, than someone who knows who you are and what you want? Who could love you more completely then someone who knows all your faults and all your mistakes and who knows your mind better than anyone, and accepts you for who you are.......... there in lies the issue, you can't hide from someone like that, you can't put on a front, you can't be someone your not......... you can't hide the things that you don't like about yourself like you might be able to do with a stranger or someone who does not know you as well, you have a choice how far you let that person in, a luxury you would not have with me. So here I am, standing here, as I always have, arms wide open saying nothing more than you are the person who completes me. You are Oreo to my milk... *smile* I have stood here love unconditional, always willing to love you for you... to be that person who was just always there. Now I think its time to change things, I will still always love you, you will always carry that special place in my heart, but now its time for me to let you go, to let you stop worry about being hurt by me. More than anything I hope you Figure out what you want from life, and you take it. I know that is the only way that it happens; you have to figure out what you want and TAKE IT. I do have to thank you, without you I never would have figured out who I was. I would never have been able to express myself like I can now. Because of YOU and only YOU I am happy being single, and should I meet someone, I think that I will be better prepared for a relationship with that person than I ever have been in my life.

I love you now and for ever buddy, you showed me what it was to love someone unconditionally, no limits, no ifs, no regrets, and no matter what other people though. You showed me what it was to be US..... To be WE...... you shared the happiest and saddest days of my life, for that I thank you, I will never forget the good or the bad times, and smile every time I think about them.